Friday, December 11, 2009
A new mom
Since becoming a new mom, my view of the world has changed. I don't want to watch the news, read the paper or watch any sad films. I only want to surround myself with happy things. I know that is totally unrealistic, but I'm so sensitive now because of Chloe. I'm getting a little paranoid too. And a little morbid I think. I constantly worry about something happening to my family members, my friends and other things I can't control. It's horrible. I lay in bed at night and think about all the horrible things that could happen. But really, what good does that do? Is that normal? Is it hormonal? I don't know. The one thing I do know is that my world will never be the same. Some days good, some days bad, but always moving in a new direction. Because of her.
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I remember being unable to watch or read anything sad, horrid, or scary, especially if it involved children. I'm still sensitive to children being hurt/mistreated/abused, and cannot read stories involving such topics. I think it's normal.
And you're right. Your perception of the world changes, and that's perfectly ok, if not great. I think it's simply the fact that you aren't living for yourself anymore - you're living for your child, and everything about you is entwined in and about your baby. I still feel that way even now. I still miss Adriana during the work days, but I don't realize it until I pick her up. If I'm at work late because of a function or what not, and miss seeing her because she's asleep when I get home, I'm bummed. Thus is the life of a loving, doting mom.
wow so cute :)
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